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I am in a thinking mood today... a state of mind that I wander off to the many tangents of my imagination and realty. I went around to look for inspirations and creativity and to learn again on how to see the simple beauty that God has laid out before my eyes and how I can, in essence, capture them in my mind's eyes.

I had a fine time njoying lunch with one of my dearest friend, xiao long bao @ her work place today and just sitting there under the shaded canopy of the outdoor cafe, njoying the moments of tranquility and companionship from a close friend who knows your heart is incomparable to any kind of luxury experienced :)

I took 2 shots in her office today... what prompted me to was unknown but I like the outcome.. there's a feeling I can't explain but when I see these 2 shots side by side, they are just as journalistically captivating as the realism of work is presented like it is: stark exposure, unaltered, hectic and yet, fascinating.

I took a trip to town afters to get more inspirations coz I seems to be running out of perspectives easily these days where the drag of creativity just make you a drone to the computer. I have somehow forgotten the simple joys of shooting, creating images that I like and how they (the photos) embodied the ideals that I have always wanted to achieve. I felt like a cookie cutter sometimes... and I seriously dread it coz the uniqueness of each image is somewhat dimmed into the ongoing pattern of weddings, weddings and more weddings. What pleases others seemed no long satisfy my own creativity needs.

side note: I bumped into a poly course mate also while I was in Kate Spade (Cityhall) looking for a matching passport holder for Ms. Clover before she leaves for Paris this weekend (no luck, the color combi sold out long ago.. guess we are still not that adventurous to try the glizzy gold and pink combi) and it was a very nice encounter coz I don't really see them around least the few I bumped into in the line of work.

A lot went through my mind as I browsed the works of many famous photographers and image makers of the artistic genre in Kino today... what do I want to achieve with my skills.. what do I want as a photographer.. what is photography to me actually.. where do I stand now and what is the future for my photography works... on and on and on....

these questions seemed to be burdening me subconsciously until I decided to dig them out today during my little foray into town to explore and try to find an answer for them... sadly, no answers and I doubt I will be finding the answers soon also but it's good that I have such questions coz it will help steer me in the path that God intended me to go and help me climb to the next level.

The sun was kind today to hide behind the greyish skies so that the heat will not add to my perplexity, I enjoyed my drink @ a snail's pace while browsing through this month's NatGeo while idly battle imaginary ideas for a good photography theme but my mind was already elsewhere.


Maybe I'm just melancholy... maybe I'm just too happy and satisfied with my life this point of time that I realised that I'm already stagnant in my creativity... maybe I need a breakthrough... all these to be answered in time and I pray for God's voice to direct me to the right path when He does.

Labels: BnW, Friends, Images, Local, Photography, Ranting, RICOH GrD, Thoughts

Posted by ShutterBug on Friday, March 21, 2008 at 00:41 | Permalink